for a relationship. At least with this guy. Or at least I hope that is the case. What if I’m not ready for anyone? That does scare me a bit.
It has been a minimum of 20 years since I have really been in a relationship of any kind. So when this guy showed even a little bit of interest to me I think I just fell for it. I have spent the last five months with him and the last month or maybe six weeks picking out all the little things I don’t like about him. But I have also been trying to figure out if I could live with those “little” things long term or not. Most, yes, I think I possibly could. But there are a few things that I know would drive me over the edge.
So I suppose today is going to be “break-up” day. I dread it. I really do. What will his response be? Will he be hurt? Will he be upset? Honestly, I don’t know. I do think, though, that he knows it is coming.
But the big question is this: Will I have to wait another 20 years before someone else finds me attractive? Or before someone wants to be with me? Oh I really hope not!
But that is what is so great about this group I have found myself in. It is group that I met via the internet (well, where else??). We started off as a hiking/walking group but as with any group of this nature there has become a core group which is primarily women – all of whom are women of a certain age. We have become a close group of friends and now do much more than just walk and hike though we still do that. All of these women are single and all are going through the same thing. Though several have had relationships more recently than I. Perhaps with their help and encouragement I might actually get out there and begin meeting some more men. Wonder if there are any men of a certain age out there that are worth it?
LOL…also without a man in my life I might actually have time to post a bit more on here than I have been!
A few weeks ago my hiking group did one of our long major hikes. It was actually a bit more strenuous than any of us expected but we all agreed that it truly was beautiful. It was pretty amazing the different terrains that we ended up going through, though unfortunately I wasn’t necessarily thinking of that at the time. Which means that there were many photos I should have taken but didn’t. This trail, about 6 miles round trip took us up to the top of a hill. We went through some marsh area, some open meadows and the redwood forest. All beautiful in their own ways. Yes, it was a bit foggy that day but living in this beautiful area we are used to that. It just mean that for that day I could not get the one photo showing how close to the ocean we were.
I’m really feeling good today. Both physically and emotionally and it really feels great! Yesterday I did a 6 mile hike. It was rated in several write-ups as being “moderate”. They lied! It was strenuous and all 13 of us on the hike agreed that it was. But wow was it beautiful and I am so very glad I did it. Right along the north coast of California where we passed through some lovely lush green redwood groves that would open up to beautiful open areas. The hike was pretty much up hill to begin with but then of course downhill on the way out. Not sure which is worse going up or going down. Either way I made it and am really proud of it.
The group I went hiking with is a group I met through meet-up (check them out – they have some really great groups). It is a group of people over a certain age that get out twice a week and sometimes on a weekend to do a walk or hike. Not only have I been getting much more exercise than I have before but have met some really wonderful people.
That is the other thing I have found with my life in the past couple of years. Many of my friends have moved, passed away or just sort of dropped out of doing things. So I have found myself with only a few friends and becoming a real homebody. Oh that is so easy to get into – believe me. But that wasn’t the life I saw for myself. So really made the effort to get out there and meet some new people. This group is really great! Many, if not most, of us are single but that really isn’t the intent of the group. But through this group I have met some people – generally women – that I would never have had the opportunity to meet otherwise. I really feel blessed being able to meet some of the people and feel that some will end up as life long friends.
What a great life!
The majority of my photos are those that have been taken fairly close to where I live. There is a creek that runs through town that has a walking/bike path along both sides of it. Eventually it is supposed to go from one side of the county to the other side. How long that is, I’m not exactly sure. I do know that currently it is around 17 or 18 miles most of which I have walked one time or another with my walking group. These photos are from what is considered the beginning of the path (or perhaps the end –depending upon where you started).
I just love some of the artwork that can be found all along the walk and hope that you do as well.
I have never been an exerciser or dieter. Actually for most of my life I never had to worry about it. I could eat what I wanted and never gained weight. But boy I hit the dreaded 50 and wow, everything just changed for me.
Recently I joined a couple of meet-up groups. One of them is a walking/hiking group. Generally the hikes are around 3 or 4 miles. Those are tough on me but so far have been able to do them. Well today we are going on a 6 mile hike. Yikes!!
Hopefully I will make it and will be able to tell all about it. Wish me well.
UPDATE: Well by my pedometer I did 5.81 miles and burned 719 calories. It was pretty hilly and rocky but really beautiful. So glad I did it! But boy do my feet hurt!